words unspoken.

hey guys,
its rawan.. we are very sorry we haven't posted for a long time now,
but i promise the next chapter will be posted soon.

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you might find this post different, you might find spelling mistakes or you might feel SO LOST, its because im not gonna re read what i wrote, i wont try to add extra feelings to make the readers get hocked i'll just write what i feel.
this post is dedicated to my one and only, my forever and always, the love of my life.

Did you wonder why we started this blog? Or why we were ready to share our story?
well here it goes..
i've never had a great real realationship but then i found this guy, and i just fell in love with him, i was crazy about him, i felt something towards him the second i looked into his eyes and after months with him taking care of me and after all the loved he showed me i realized that i finally found my love. so i told my twin rana that i wanted to start this blog about finding true love.. and how i found mine, she loved the idea, because she thought it would be a perfect way to help her forget her true love..
when we started the first few chapters i wanted to rush them so i can get to his part and my love for him, i wanted to write how he made me feel, and how he changed me to the best and how he helped me grow up and think straight, most importantly he taught me how to love, how to express my true feelings.

did anyone ever replace you?
I GOT REPLACED. 
he replaced me.. HE FUCKING REPLACED ME!!!!!!!
why? I DONT KNOW!!!!!!!
i just cry myself to sleep every night i've been sad for more than 5 months now.
do you know how hard this is? how hard is it to be replaced by someone you love more than anything in this world? by someone you care about, by someone you will never forget? no one will understand what i am going through, because i loved him more than juliet loved romeo, more than anything, ANYTHIMG!!!
i just cant imagine him telling someone else "7abeebty'' or taking care of her or even loving her, hes MINE and it kills me to see him happy with someone else.

i remember how we stayed up all night talking on the phone, how he used to get jealous from every guy i talk to, and how he cared about me like hell, how i used to text him while he was asleep just because i miss him, and he would wake up and just laugh at the stupid things i texted him, ohhh maaaaay he used to call me baby, and that made me MELT!!! that made me go crazy that made me do anything for him

you might say he was playing, but i knew him very well.

what changed him? i dont know i really dont and thats whats killing me

so baby here it goes i'll just write the things i've always wanted to say but you never gave me the chance to do so;

ILOVEYOU. i love you i love you i really do
 i will always love you no matter what happens you will always have my heart, and my love, ALL of my love.
 i still care about you, and i still get jealous from every girl you talk too,
 i wish i can have you back and fix what i did wrong, and just be yours again,
 i've never loved anyone the way i love you, its hard to watch you leave like that,
 i cry every night hoping you were there, hoping you would surprise me and tell me that you love me,
hoping that i can go back in time to re live our love story, do you actually believe me?
 do you understand what im going through? do you care? do you? do you? do you?
 many questions on my mind walah,
but i never got the answers actually i never got the chance to ask them....
why did you leave me? you promised me you wouldn't.. is she prettier?
 is she treating you well?
do you love her more than you loved me? will you ever come back?
ILOVEYOU!!!
 please understand i cant live without you,
sometimes i just think its better if i just leave this world,
but then i remember all the people that still care about me,
you might think im over reacting bs i seriously love you to death!!!!!
its so hard writing this
im in pain i feel weak i feel worthless you made me feel good about myself
and now that you are gone i just dont feel happy about myself
you willl tell me that ''im there as a friend''
guess what? I DONT WANT YOU A FRIEND
i want you back as lover as someone that loves me and cares about me
i want to wake up and find a good morning text from you, i want you to call me and tell me that you love you,
i just want you back please.
i tried i swear i tried forgetting you its just not easy
i stalk everything you do and i re read our old captures they make me cry even more
you might think crying is a normal thing, but im tired of crying
 tired of locking myself in the bathroom and sitting down in the corner wondering why?
tired of looking at myself in the mirror asking if it is eyes that you didnt like, or my hair, or my nose, or even my smile
crazy? will yeah i do that shit and you never knew
when you used to think just think im sad you used to do everything to make me feel better
now you hear me cry and dont even say sorry...
am i that worthless now?
why did we end up this way?
i trusted you, i gave you everything, i loved you, i cared about you, and i did everything to please you
i just want you back in my life
come back please come back, i'll make you feel like you never did 
after everything you did i still want you
and even if you come back after 10 years i'll be here waiting
i tired baby im very tired, everytime i think of you being with someone else
i slap myself so hard and say ''how did you allow him to leave''
im yours even if you're not mine
walaaaaa wala wala wala you will always have my heart no matter what happens
and i just hope that one day you will realize that i am the one for you
dont forget me please.
make me happy and surprise me one day by coming back
i can write all day and i want to write more but crying is not helping its making things worst, i feel like my head is going to explode and i feel even after everything i wrote you wont feel what im going through
you changed you really changed and i dont deserve to be treated the way you are treating me, you harmed me more than i harmed you,
i have every right to treat you like shit after what you did but i cant, because im crazy about you
i love you
I LOVE YOU!!!
alot
after everything i wrote there is still feelings i havent expressed
and some love i haven't showed
my love for you is forever
I PROMISE YOU I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU, ALWAYS.
and i will never give up on us.


-rawan.

Chapter Fourteen

Rana: la tgoleen but.. ra7 tinsain 9adgeene

Rawan was still thinking to herself if she should tell her sister or not.

Rawan: can you please stop  interrupting? you're making it harder for me

Rana looked confused.

Rawan: I didn't break up with him.

Rana: NA3AAAAAMMM? intay mu men 9ijich 9a7? shloon terthainha 3ala nafsich inich tkuneen his second girlfriend Rawan? do you even know what that means?

Rawan said with tears streaming down her face: adre wala adre.. bas shasawe gooleely wala a7iba Rana a7iba

Rana did nothing except hug her sister. She was positive that her sister would eventually come around and realise that what she's doing is wrong and put an end to it.

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Weeks went by and the summer was almost over and the girls were about to go back to school in a week.
What happened in the past few weeks? Rawan broke up with Aziz. NOT because she stopped loving him but because she realised that he didn't love her back. He only loved the way she made him feel and the way he loved life and being free when he was around her. His true love was towards his first girlfriend and when Rawan made him choose between them, he didn't choose her. Surprisingly she wasn't affected by the breakup that much and got over it within three days and thats what made Rana worry, she thought that her sister wasn't the type that would ever seriously fall in love or experience a relationship like the one she has Rashed. Rana was scared to admit this to herself because she feared that it would be true, she never wanted to think that her sister was a player and could easily replace anyone she liked. Every time Rana thought that she would say to herself "its not her fault, she just wasn't lucky in her past relationships, w a9lan a7sanlaha chithy ma t3awer galbha"

And the twins mom was doing great and she's back home. The girls were taking care of her now.

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It was Saturday and the girls were going to start school in a week. The they decided to go out and buy their school shoes and bags.

Rano:
Rashed 7abeeby ana 6al3a ma3a rawan binroo7 il avenues

Rashed AlX:
Bit6awloon?

Rano:
Kinda, bensawy shopping then bnitghada

Rashed AlX:
I miss you

Rano:
Me too, yalah bas buga one week oo itshoofny!!

Rashed AlX:
Laish moo one hour?

Rano:
Huh?;s

Rashed AlX:
Ee al7een bamur wahabo oo binye avenues

Rano:
La rashed tekfa wahab la2, rawan ma3ay

Rashed AlX:
Please rana? Ya3ne he's my cousin shtabeene asawy? Atbara mena?

Rana was scared that her sister was going to get mad at her about what she's done, but she really did miss Rashed and wanted to see him so she didn't really bother thinking about it that much.

Rano:
Okay

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Rawan: ranoo shofay mu chena hatha il flat 7elo?

Rana: laa shofay hatha a7la

Rawan: EEE perfect! 

Rana: haha w shfeech meshta6a ag9a school shoes, haday a39abech *giggles*

Rawan: *whispers* mu chetha hatha..

Rana knew the next thing she was going to hear was "Wahab" so she decided to try and change the subject.

Rana: umm.. oo la tensain tara lazem endawer 3ala bags ma khala9na

Rawan: rana look its rashed oo wahab

Rana could see the pained/annoyed look on her sister's face then she realized how selfish she was being. So she acted as if she didn't know.

Rana: 9ij wain? *looks left and right*

Rawan: walah 9ij? you're gonna act like you don't know? 7abeebty, rashed doesn't move an inch without telling you where he's going

Rana: inzain oo intay laish m3a9ba?

Rawan: la2ina ma7eb a7ad yestahbil 3alay cheny ghabeya

Rana knew the real reason why Rawan was upset. It was because she saw Wahab, but Rawan was acting strong and decided to put the blame on her sister instead. Rana took the blame because it was mostly her fault.

Rana: i'm sorry..

Rawan: khala9 6af, lets just go home we'll come back another day, wahab is staring 

Rana: la2 rawan, many mkhaleetich twareena ena he's bothering you, act as if he doesn't exist. you have to show him that you're strong w ina uhwa mu hamech, may9eer kel ma shefteeh ib tin7ashain. yalah al7een abeech you put on a sexy face and we're gonna walk right past them.

Rana didn't give her sister a chance to speak, she held on tightly to her arms making sure she wouldn't escape and pulled her out of the shop.

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Chapter Thirteen

Rawanii:
Shqa9dik ya3ne 3aziz? You have two girlfriends?

3aziz AlX:
Ee.. Bas sim3eeny Rawan before you say anything I DO LOVE YOU! W allah shahed shkether bas my other girlfriend ghair, we've been together for three years now and I'm so attached to her I can't leave her. But that doesn't mean I don't love you, when I met you I felt something different I felt like I can do whatever I want with you and you care about me and you're a fun person to be around and you make me laugh, walah a7ibich Rawan tikfain la tkhaleeny

Rawan did feel like everything he said was sincere and from his heart but she couldn't get over the fact and accept the feeling that she's the second one and she's probably the reason that another girl feels miserable and worthless right now and she couldn't take responsibility for that. She wanted 3aziz and she wishes to forget everything he said and just keep living with him the way she used to before without having anything in the way. But now there was something very big standing in between her and 3aziz.

3aziz AlX:
Rawan please riday 3alay

Rawanii:
3aziz I can't be the reason for you to cheat on your girlfriend and I can't know that and keep talking to you, I'm not that kind of person.

3aziz AlX:
Just give me a couple of days I swear I'll work things out just don't leave me please walah a7ibch

Rawan felt confused, she felt weak. She couldn't resist him. But yet again the though of her not being his one and only kept pushing all of those feelings away.

Rawanii:
I love you.

She knew what she was doing was wrong, she knew it wasn't right for her to steal him away from his girlfriend but yet again it wasn't her fault, she didn't know. She also trusted 3aziz and knew that he would fix this like he said, or at least she hoped he would.

Rana noticed that her sisters tears were filling up her lap so she went over to hug her.

Rana: Rawan shfeech?

Rawan: 3aziz..

Rana: oo shfeeh 3aziz?

Rawan: 3aziz has a girlfriend before me and they're still together 

Rana was speechless.

Rawan: RANA GA3DA TIFHIMEEN? I'M NOT HIS ONE AND ONLY!!! 3AZIZ 3INDA WA7DA GHAIRY YA RANA!

Rana: aham shay ina uhwa galech il9ej and you know everything about him and its over now, btilgain ily a7san mena 

Rawan didn't know what to say.

Rawan: but..

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Will Rawan tell her sister the truth? Or will she hide whats going on to avoid her sisters questions?

Chapter Twelve

Rawan looks back to find her aunt looking at her with an angry look on her face.

Rawan: uhhhh.. hathy rifeejty

Aunt: w hatha wagta tkalmeen rifeejtech?

Rawan: laa bas ihya daga tit6aman 3ala mama

Rawan: yalah 7abeebty lulu tslmeen, akalmech later, bye

Rawan then bbm's 3aziz.

Rawanii: 

Thank you so much 3aziz it means a lot bas khala9 irja3 il bait gabel ma a7ad yshek feena 

3aziz AlX:

La t7ateen maku a7ad beshik, w hatha aqal men wajby

Rawan felt safe which Aziz and that no one could ever touch her or harm her when he was there. She knew he was the one for her.

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Aunt: ha banat kalamtaw ubookum wela akalma ana?

Rana: la2 ma kalamna wela binkalma oo ma7ad ygoola please

Aunt: lash ya 7abeebty tara hatha ubookum oo men 7aga y3aref

Rawan: la mu men 7aga khalty, loo mu uhwa chan umna al7een ga3da baina, uhwa ilsibab ib kelshy 9ar 7ag umy, loo kan mawjood chan ihya ma it6arat tsawe kel hatha w tsheel ilbait kela 3ala thaharha lai 6a7at 3alaina

Rana: 9aa7 kalam Rawan, khalty please manabeeh y3aref, laii ti'thakar in a 3enda 3yal w murt bydig yes2al

At that moment the girls hated their father more than anything, they blamed him for everything that happened to their mother. Their aunt felt bad for them, they should love their father and have him around all the time but they never had that, and deep down she knew the girls were right so she didn't argue with them.

-

10 minutes later the doctor come out of the room and walks towards them.

They all got up as fast as they can and walked towards him.

Rana: basher doctor? umy shfeeha, zaina?

Doctor: il7emdilah umkum ma feeha shay bas men kether ilta3ab w ilthagh6 t3ibat w 6a7at 3alaikum 

Rana: akeed doctor?

Doctor: akeed, intaw ti6aminaw

Rawan: inzain doctor negdar inshoofha?

Doctor: ee tigdroon bas mu al7een la2inha nayma

Aunt: ma tga9er doctor, allah ybashrek bel khair 6amantna

Doctor: il3afuu

-

The girl's aunt dropped them home. And after checking on Awrad their baby sister the girls went up and sat on the balcony.

Rawan was bbm-ing Aziz.

Rawanii:

Thank you waged 3ala wagfitik ma3ay ilyoum:* it means a lot

3aziz AlX:

Can you please stop saying thank you? Wala ya rawan ina hatha aqaal men gadrich:* 

Rawanii:

<3

3aziz AlX:

Rawan, lazem akalmech eb mawthou3 muhim..

Rawanii:

2amer?

3aziz AlX:

Walah hal shay ana menziman widy iny agoola lech bas mu 3aref shloun agoola

Rawanii:

3aziz shfeek? 5ara3tny

3aziz AlX:

Rawan, I have a girlfriend

Rawanii:

Qa9dik you had? Eee I know, even I had a boyfriend what's the big deal?

3aziz AlX:

Laa2 mu had, HAVE* I currently have a girlfriend..

Rawan's heart literally skipped a beat, hatha mu men 9ija 9a7? ya3ne shlon? ma y7ibny? ga3ed ygi6ly naghzat?

...

Chapter Eleven

Rawan: what did yo do now?

Rana: I was mean to Rashed lana galech

Rawan: uhwa mala sheghl, 7aram 3alaich

Rana: adree, shasawy?

Rawan: rou7ay digay 3alaih w ratheeh

Rana: okay

-

Rana went to their room to call Rashed.

Rashed: alo

Rana: wallah Rashed 7abeeby I'm so sorry oo I know iny ghela6t eb 7agek please same7ny. I was very frustrated oo ma 3eraft shasawy with Rawan oo ana asfa iny 6ala3t 7arety feek

Rashed: ma 3alaih 7a9al khair 7abeebty, bas la ten3aad

Rashed could never stay mad at Rana. He loved her too much.

Rana: I promise you ma ten3aad

Rashed: a7ibech walah

Rana heard her baby sister crying.

Rana: umm.. 7abeeby shway oo akalmek ikhty ilzgheera ga3da tabchy madre shfeeha

Rashed: oo wain umech?

Rana: t9adeg madre, khalny aroo7 ashoof

Rashed: okay 7abeebty w kalmeeny bbm

Rana: inshallah, bye

-

Rana knocked the door and no one answered, all she could hear was her sister crying.

Rana: haw wain mama?

She opened the door and she didn't believe what she saw. Her mother was laying motionless on the floor next to the bed and her sister was in her crib crying.

Rana: MAMAA!!!!!!

Rana ran towards her mum and fell on the floor right next to her. She picked her head up and put it on her lap.

Rana: mama.. mama 7abeebty goomay.. yala mama

Rana's tears were falling onto her mother's cheeks . She couldn't believe her mother was lying like that on the floor she thought it was some kind of joke, a prank there mother was trying to pull on them.

Rana: haha mama mu men 9ijich 9a7? intay ga3da tg9een 3alay? yala bes khara3teeny 3an il dala3 goumay

Rana kept lying to herself and telling herself that her mother was okay.

Rawan heard the scream and ran upstairs to follow the voice only to find the same scene that Rana found.

-

The next thing the girls knew they were outside the operating room in AlHadi hospital with their aunt waiting for the doctors to come out and tell them what was wrong with their mother.

The girls sat there with hot tears escaping their almond shaped eyes and burning their way down their faces and necks. They were both holding hands as if afraid to loose each other, as if they were the only thing they had left.

The girls were still in shock. They couldn't get past the image of their strong mother lying like that on the floor. That wasn't the woman they knew and loved for so long. She looked pale and lifeless. Unlike the strong woman they were used to seeing, the woman that managed to raise two beautiful girls and give birth to a lovely baby. It wasn't the woman that ran and took responsibility of a huge house by herself without the help of her husband that was always away. 

Suddenly the girls' fear and sadness turned into hate. Hate and anger towards their father that left their mother do all that by herself which resulted in her being in the operating room between life and death. 

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Rawan suddenly spotted a familiar figure between her tears. She rubbed her eyes to try to see clearer. He was tall, very tall, he had short pitch black hair that was messy as if he just got out of bed w malah khulg. He had piercing light brown eyes that were surrounded with beautiful long lashes. He was wearing white hollister sweatpants and a yellow t-shirt. Yes, it was Aziz.

Rawan squeezed Rana's hand and Rana followed Rawan's eyes to see Aziz standing at the end of the hall way.

Rawan and Aziz's eyes met. At that moment she felt safe. She felt like she wanted to run and fall into his arms and cry herself to death. 

Rawan felt her blackberry vibrate against her leg. 

[Incoming Call]

Aziz

Rawan: what are you doing here?

Aziz: kheft 3alaich, I didn't want to leave you alone I always want to be here for you oo abeech tathiqeen feeny oo tit2akedain ena I'm always here. oo fee a7ad galech men gabel inch you look cute when you're crying? you look like an angle and I hate to see an angel cry. umich inshalah mafeeha ila il 3afyah intay bas id3eelaha allah ygawemha bel salamah

Rawan: *sniff* thank you, wallah it means a lot to me *sniff* thank you wayed oo ameen 

Aziz: ushh ma baina thank you, yalah ana al7een akhaleech bas I'm staying here many met7arek men mukany whenever you need anything just call

Before Rawan could answer him a familiar voice interrupted.

....: Rawan? menu t7acheen?

Chapter Ten

Rawanii:
Rashed inta feek shay? What are you talking about?:p


-Rashed AlX:
Rawaan laa tista3bi6ain akeed Rana galatlich shay!! Ya3ne how did she feel when we held hands or when she heard the song?


Rawanii:
What song?


-Rashed AlX:
Elly smi3at'ha in the car


Rawanii:
Huh??:s I'm not following what you're saying Rashed..


Rawan was beyond confused. 
"What did he mean? Did Rana go out with him? Did she get into his car? Why didn't she tell me? Why was she hiding it? Did they do anything wrong? La la ikhty mu chthy."


Rana: haa ikhty il7ilwa ib shenu sar7ana?


Rawan was thinking deeply and didn't hear Rana come into the room.


Rawan: wain kentay?


Rana: bel jam3eya, w yibtlich ily tabeena. shfeech embawza?


Rawan threw her phone at Rana.
Rawan: igraay w tshofeen laish embawza 3ala goltech


Rana caught the phone with her trembling fingers and read the chat between Rawan and Rashed. 


She turned around to try to explain what happened but Rawan left the room.


The only thing Rana could think of was to call Rashed. So she picked up her blackberry.


[Outgoing Call]
Rashood;*


6oo6 6oo6 6o-


Rashed: hala bel zain


Rana: what did you do?


Rashed: Rana shfeech?


Rana: laish gelt 7ag Rawan? dayman lazem tkhareb klshy Rashed!!!


Rashed: Rana it was a mistake ana shdaraney ina intay ma gilteelaha? calm down 7abeebty


Rana: bye Rashed bye


Rashed: Rana!!


-6oo6-


And she closed the line.


She knew what she did was wrong but she was angry at herself and she needed to take the anger out on someone.


-


Rana walked into the living room and found Rawan watching pretty little liars.


Rana: e7m..


Rawan ignored her and kept watching.


Rana: Rawan?..


Rawan: shtabeen? I left the room for a reason, mabe akalmech


Rana: Rawan wallah you have every right to be mad at me oo wallah I'm so sorry bas I didn't tell you lany kheft a6ee7 men 3ainich. kheft tfakreen shay ghala6 bas wallah ana weyah ma sawainah shay he just held my hand thats it


Rawan: Ana ekhtich. tadreen shnu ya3ne ekhtich? ya3ne loo shenu y9eer ra7 ougaf yamech oo 3umry ma afaker feech eb shay shain lana adre umy mrabyatna 3ala shenu. Rana hal mara ra7 asam7ech la2eny adry kentay khayfa bas walah itha hal shay en3aad ma tloumeen ela nafsech sma3tay?


Rana jumped on top of her sister and gave her the biggest bear hug ever.


Rana: WALLAH ENICH JAMEELA W A7LA EKHIT BEL DENYA A7IBICH


Rawan: haha wakhray 3any yal thgeela


Rana: allah ysam7ech


Rawan: bas yalah ush ge3day lets continue the episode 


Rana: okaay


Thats how the girls' relationship was, they had huge fights a lot and get mad at each other but thats only because they cared. And each time they would make up easily.


-


Rana sat down next to Rawan and took her blackberry out to talk to Rashed like she always does.


Ranooya:
7abeeby?


-Rashed AlX:
Na3am?


"Huh shfee hatha laish e7acheeny chthy? OHH 9A7! 7abeeby 7aram I was really mean to him a while ago." Rana thought.


Rana: Rawan.. ana sawait shay wayed ghaby...

Chapter Nine

We're very very very sorry we took so long to post. We hope the wait was worth it! Enjoy x


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Rawan: Rana, I know someone else...


Rana: sh8a9dich ya3ne you know someone else?


Rawan: bagoolch kilshay bas please abeech tfhmeen and don't judge me


Rana: okay...


Rawan: ok shoofay, theres this guy that I once bumped into in a 360 when I was out with Dana, ba3ad'ha that day kint ashoofa and we make eye contact w madre shloon he got my twitter w he followed me and we started talking dm's ya3ne he'd ask whenever I'd tweet 'not in the mood' or a sad face or a pissed face or anything, then we added each other on bbm w he knew I had a boyfriend and that things weren't very well with him w kint ashkeela 3an Wahab w kilshay kan y9eer agoola ya w kan ysa3edny w yhadeeny, he's everything that Wahab never was, he cares about me so much and I think I fell for him bas madre how he feels about me, please la t3a9been Rana


Rana was SHOCKED! She didn't know what to think.
"Does this mean Rawan is cheating on Wahab? But no, my sister isn't like that. But Wahab is really bad to her and he doesn't treat her well whereas this guy, whoever he is, does. I shouldn't be judging her I'm doing exactly what she told me not to"
Rana kept drifting away into her thoughts until Rawan interrupted.


Rawan: please ta7achay ga3da tkhar3eene


Rana: walah ya Rawan madre shagoolich, 9idamteeny, bas I know that everything you're saying is true and Wahab kind of deserves this bas still what you're doing is wrong, ya3ne just break up with Wahab w fukay 3umrch la t3algeen il9bay w t3algeen nafsich ma3a


Rawan: adre walah adre its wrong w kalmch 9a7 and I feel so bad and I'm going to break up with Wahab I promise bas I just need time to think about it


Rana: 3ala ra7tich, bas I hope you do it really soon


-


Its been a week since the girls had that talk.


Oh, and the guy Rawan talks to, his name is Aziz. Rana got to see how well he treats her, and Rawan was right, nothing like Wahab.


The girls were sitting in their balcony as usual with their iPod speakers on and enjoying the scene of hot guys walking in and out of the dewaniya in front of their house.


Rawan: bismilaah


Rana: shfeech?


Rawan: Wahab galy 'we need to talk'


Rana: 3ade la tkhafeen yimkn y6la3 shay sakheef mithla


Rawan gave Rana a '-_-' look. Rana hated Wahab for the way he treated her sister and never missed the change of showing it.


-Abdulwahab AlX:
We need to talk


Rawoon:
Hala? Shfeek?


-Abdulwahab AlX:
Rawan, intay 3ajbich ilwath3 ily i7na fee? La adre 3anich wela tadreen 3any w we call ourself bf and gf


Rawoon:
La wallah Wahab mo 3ajebny and I told you that a million times bas inta kela tgooly sorry w btitghayar w akhrat'ha intim 3ala nafs il7ala


-Abdulwahab AlX:
Ee 9a7 kalamich w ana ma ankir hal shay. Thats why I think ina this isn't working out and we should end it, its whats best for the both of us.


What Rawan just read shocked her. She didn't know why but something inside her just ached. But still, she felt happy and relieved that its all over. She doesn't have to thinking or worry about him anymore. 
She had mixed emotions and not single tear escaped her eyes, she was just shocked.


Rawoon:
I was going to say that anyways bas ashwa yat mink 3ashan ma a6la3 ana the bad person;). It was nice knowing you Wahab.


She wanted to act cold. Just like the way this relationship felt and the way he treated her.


-Abdulwahab AlX:
I'm so sorry for everything walah Rawan and I hope you forgive me someday and we can still be friends if you want and I'm always going to be here for you meta ma bghaitay shay la yridich ela lsanich:*


"Bullshit" this was the only word that Rawan could think of. After all this time of pain and being cold to her and breaking up with her in such a way he comes and says sorry? Well thats not going to fix anything.
So without even replying Rawan just deleted him off of bbm and out of her life for good.


Rana was sitting next to her the whole time and reading everything but didn't say a word. She wanted to see how Rawan would act and her actions shocked her more than what had happened. She thought that she would burst into tears or at least tell him a few words that will leave him scared. But no, all she did was delete him.


I know you all might be wondering why Rawan acted in such a way. She did because she didn't know any other way to act towards him, all she ever felt from him was coldness and no emotions so she decided to treat him the same way. As to what was going on in her head she felt disgusted and disappointed in herself because she didn't breakup with him before he did. But still she was relived that this was all over.


Rana hugged her sister.
Rana: walah ma yestahlich hal 7aywan w il7imdillah ftakaitay menah khal ywaly, you have Aziz


Rawan: ee walah adre Rana w kilsh mu za3lana, ya3ne maku shay az3al 3alaih bas ana ma9douma ina tjara2 w sawa chthy ba3d kil ily sta7malta mena


Rana: 9ij mu kafu


-


Days have past and Rawan never brought Wahab up again, he was gone. She told Aziz everything and he helped her and was there for her, so was Rana.


As for Rana and Rashed. Things have been going great between them. They would talk for at least two hours on the phone before they sleep and their relationship was beyond amazing even though they had their ups and downs and small arguments but that never harmed their strong relationship.


[Incoming call]
Rashood;*


Rana: aloo


Rashed: hala walah hala hala


Rana giggled 
Rana: hala feek, ha wainik?


Rashed: raye7 ildewaniya 7abeebty intay wainich?


Rana: deer balek, walah ga3da bil bait madre ymkn aa6la3


Rashed: inzain itha bt6l3een gooleely wain w meta


Rana: inshalah


Rashed: Rana fe shay wedy agoolch ya bas khayef


Rana: la tkhaf 3ade tigdar tgoly ayshay


Rashed: bashoofich, ya3ne may9eer chthy we've been together for how long now w wela mara g3adna face to face as a couple w ba3dain I miss you


He was right, they never really met, kela yshofoon ba3ath min b3eed lay b3eed. Rana really did want to see and sit with Rashed but she thought she wasn't ready and that its way too wrong.


Rashed: shfeech sakta? shoofay I'm not gonna pressure you 7abeebty itha hal shay ma yray7ich ma nsawee bes fakray feeha w rideely khabar. yallah ana lazim amshy al7een we9alt, tabeen shay?


Rana: la salamtik, yalah bye take care


Rashed: inshalah yalah bye


Rana thought long and hard about it and she decided that she would do it. She really did love Rashed a lot and thought that he wouldn't do anything to hurt her.


Ranooya:
Rashed, ana mwafqa


Rashed AlX:
Ya 7ayat Rashed intay, thank you walah 7abeebty you won't regret it. Lama arid min ildewaniya I'll call you and we'll work something out:*


-


So today is the day Rana will meet Rashed. They decided they would meet at the jam3eyah and Rana would go into Rashed's car and he'd park somewhere. At first she felt hesitant and that it was wrong and she would feel like one of those b*tches but Rashed always calmed her down and told her nothing would happen he just wanted to see her. She also decided that she wouldn't tell Rawan about it because she didn't want her to have the wrong impression and think she was a b*tch. 


Rana was on her way with the driver to the jam3eyah. She told Rawan she went to get some "emergency girl stuff" and as usual Rawan asked for chocolate and candy.


So she arrived at the jam3eyah and bbmed Rashed.


Ranooya:
Ana we9alt wainik?


-Rashed AlX:
I'm in the white tinted jeep yam baab iljam3eyah, ta3alay w rekbay ma3ay


Ranooya:
Okay


Rana was wearing ripped denim jeans and a while shirt with a bunch of gold necklaces and gold rings with studded black flats. She sprayed some perfume and fixed her wavy hair before leaving the car.


Rana: Rajo and Lisa please both of you wait for me here


As she was walking towards Rashed's car he stomach began to tie up into knots and her palms began to sweat. Her heart was beating rapidly and was about to break out of her chest at any moment.


She got next to the door and opened it to see her beautiful Rashed sitting behind the steering wheel wearing grey a&f shorts and a blue t-shit. One of the things she loved most about him was his curly hair.


She got into the seat next to him and sat down looking at her lap and playing with her necklaces. 


Rashed's smile was from ear to ear.


Rashed: hala, hala bil zaiiin 


He would always greet her that way even on the phone because he knew it always made her laugh.


Rana giggled.
Rana: hala feek, shlounik?


Rashed: ily yshoufich shloon maykoun bkhair?


Rana: thank you


It was a stupid answer but at that moment she couldn't think of anything else.


Rashed: fee shay basam3ich yaa


Rana: shnu?


Rashed turn to the radio and entered a CD into the slot.


As soon as he put it in Abdulmajeed Abdullah's voice came through.


Rashed: sim3aay kelmat'ha


عمري مافكرت فيك وماخطر في البال حبك
لين قلبي قال ابيك وقالت عيوني احبك ..
صرت عندي اغلى شي واغلى من نفسي عليّ
مالك بقلبي شريك بعد مافكرت فيك ..
كنت اشوفك من بعيد مع جميع الناس عادي
ماتخيلتك حبيب رايح بقلبي وغادي ..
قمت افز لشوفتك واتحرى جيتك
انتظر حبي الجديد بعدما فكرت فيك ..
لا تعجب من غلاي مثلك احساسي تعجب
وانت في يدك هواي مهتني ولا معذب ..
ياعساني منحرم انت يااغلى اسم
لاهجر العالم وجيك بعد ما فكرت فيك .. 


Rana: ambaih Rashed walah a7ib hal ghneya wayed


Rashed: ihdaa2 lich ya a7la Rana


Rana just put her head down. Rashed reached out and took Rana's hand into his and fit his fingers between her's perfectly.


He slowly brought her hand towards his face a planted a kiss on them.


Rashed: walah a7ibich


Rana: walah ana ba3ad. yalah Rashed I have to go now 


Rashed: okay 7abeebty yalah roo7ay w deeray balich, awal ma to9leen ilbait kalmeeny w 6amneeny


Rana: inshalah


And Rana walked away from the best experience she has ever had.<3


-


Rawan was patiently sitting at home waiting for Rana to come back with her candy and chocolate when she got a bbm.


-Rashed AlX:
Hala Rawan shloonich? Rawan please lama Rana too9al ilbait abeech tshofeenha shgalat about today? Is she happy wella laa2 w please goleely 


Rawan didn't understand what was happening...